Awakening (2018)

I just cried out seven years worth of tears

Inhaled and let go of seven years worth of fears

Woke up in a place I don't recognize, I guess this is weird

Feeling a sense of pride when I look into the mirror

They say history don't repeat itself, but sometimes it rhymes

And that's why, I see parallels between the story of the West and mine

Periods of lightness, darkness, growth and decline

The only way to truly be defeated is when you decide to hide

We all have these times when we fall from grace

And maybe we all need to go on some ill-conceived crusade

Never really destined to succeed but somehow paving the way

To new people, ideas and knowledge to bring back to the game

Those Crusades did not go exactly as planned

Separated Brothers were out-gunned, but not out-manned

Returned with something more valuable than arid land

A few centuries later they were ready to expand

Even if these missions go down in flames, and we get burned

Never reaching that target, feels like nothing earned, nothing learned

Temped to descend farther and farther into the absurd

Taking on the mission is a sign that our spirit has returned

Before all the successes, before we get any piece of the pie

Comes the conscious decision no longer to hide

No longer be crippled by fear, hate, and those that we despise

Victimhood mentality has one result, way more tears to cry

The story of the West has lessons for me and for you

In dark times we need the spirit of Charlemagne to get us through

When we fell attacked from all directions, like we fucking screwed

Just barely surviving, can't even contemplate starting something new

And as long as we don't give up, decide not to succumb

To complacency, and settling for nothing but the crumbs

After seven years, I finally get a shot at something that aint dumb

I feel like its finally dawn, and in the horizon is the sun

Like my people in 1440, everything that was once great being renewed

Looking back at all that time when I didn't have a clue

The years I shrank followed by the years that I grew

Shifting to looking to the future, all the great things I be ready to do

The emotions overwhelm as I felt abused and deceived

Those dark points where I felt I could no longer do me

My own dark age, hiding what I really believe, so no-one could really see

So many people scared, mad and prepared to attack all who disagree

But when you observe your life and realize it's non stop lying

Only enabled by whatever drugs those around you are supplying

Only two choices ahead of you, one is slowly dying

The other is saying fuck it, time to just come out of hiding

Although at first it's filled with discomfort and fright

The more you do it, the more it just feels right

Over time, you will find, yourself more and more in places you like

Making plans, doing shit, finding ways to reach new heights

Like that uncovered dormant knowledge, lessons re-learned

The most important one is that the first wave is internal

The changes that need to be made, need be made within yourself first

Then your crew, their other peoples, your nation and the world



I ain't willing to abide

By far too many laws

Got too much pride

To default to social norms

Half my friends think they've tried

But see me as a lost cause

They mad cuz I'm getting high

And they on all fours


The music pumps and pumps

I can feel it in my veins

Same tunes by their response

It just ain't the same

Hitting just another bump

They think I hydroplane

Still glad I decided to come

Even when it starts to rain


It's hard to  explain

Like the bell in Polar Express

Just ain't the same

And it ain't time for a rest

They want it plain

I see what it is; a mess

Slippin into insane

Stupid way to avoid a mess



No jeers, No fears, No tears


A robot will do what you do in 20 years


Twitter and Facebook makes me feel vindicated


For all the thoughts I confidently regurgitated


Can't get through turbulence on auto-pilot


Now I am the one that's prying


Listen closely

I got something to say

Real talk ain't only

For people wanting to get laid

Y'all don't know me

Cuz you only out there to get paid

Please stop showing me

The giant mess y'all made


Douche-turd, douche-turd

Y'all so absurd

Mocking me and my peeps

For being on the third


E-40 we all got choices

That I certainly know

Don't lose you voices

Make your options grow

Trophy only hoisted

When the towel was not thrown

I ain't lost it

Just finding a different way to go

The bottle

Verse 1:

Aching in a way that you can’t conceive

Dumb and dumbfounded cuz you don’t perceive

Know not yourself cuz you don’t believe

Assuming something always up our sleeve


Vision getting blurry as your face turns red

Always fillin’ up with the words unsaid

Waitin and waitin’ for some go-ahead

Simple sugars take the place of bread


Go the other way, it’s a flatter path

Don’t wanna cry, I’d rather laugh

I love yo’ avatar, it’s quite a blast

Like what I got, no need for the stash



In 18 months time, you’ll be full throttle

But I know how to not make it my problem

So be cool, and just throw it in the bottle

Throw it in the bottle


Head in the clouds, that’s my motto

No bigger eye sore than a pothole

No need to see that, throw it in the bottle

Throw it in the bottle


Verse 2:

The bottle knows all, the bottle is wise

As Kendrick put it, bitch don’t steal my vibe

To those who don’t know it’s hard to describe

I’m cool, I’m real, cracka I’m alive


Look at me, I got plenty o’ dough

And I know all the hip places to go

Corn hole, yo’ every single throw

Just spent my $100 at Things that Glow


Damn right I won it, double zero not my bet

Rollin the dice, aint’ done me wrong yet

I’m flying high, every evening spent

Call me Scotty P., no ragrets




Verse 3:

I see you over there, you’re a mystery

I love to be amused by what I see

Dice now rollin’ almost constantly

Where this all goes, aint up to me


Two and two make four, or maybe make nine

The bottle reassure, it’ll all be fine

Can’t connect the dots, no straight line

Runnin’ out of space, and runnin’ out of time


Don’t know the source of my latest endeavor

Man made top quality don’t last forever

Hope I have a rock, never to sever

Embarrassed to show what’s under the sweater




Like Arabian nights, there’s a genie inside

But this one aint giving you a prize

This one know where your thought collide

This one know where your soul reside


Even the best of rides someday is through

Gotta go back and decide, what to do

Like the matrix, those pills red and blue

Like a child’s game, you got a latter or a chute


Choose latter, tough things you got to do

It’s out with the old, all that through

House destroyed, volcanic ash been spewed

18 months now till you not confused


The bottle give, and the bottle take

Real truth, the bottle can’t fake

The bottle have a purpose, it have a sake

Mind the limits on the bottle’s intake